Jungle of Complexity

Lost in the jungle of complexity

Debating whether this should truly be my destiny

To tug on a rope opposed by your life’s responsibility

Strengthened by your mind’s uncertainty

 Wondering to myself where that meets leaves me

Every time I say I had enough

I pumped up my mind and toughened my heart

You show me a glimpse of sanity and it’s enough

Is it that old female’s way of thinking?

 That I can change him or it

Like a Locomotive driven by the steam

Drive pushing me

That belief that with time

The right lines and rhymes

Determination

 Perspiration

 Conversation

Temptation

 Food for starvation

And enough faith

You will be mine

The more you attempt to elude me

The more infatuated I become with the thought of unity

The feeling is more infectious then a disease  

Every vaccination seemingly bringing me to my knee

Irony…

Immunity losing the battle meant to enable the entity

I questioned what really pushes me

Baited like a mouse

Enticed by the sight and the smell of cheese laid on a trap  

Or a fly attempting to partake of the venomous sap

Or a Venus flytrap

It was you’re initial interest that even entangled me

It’s funny…

Because once I get what I want  

Then I don’t want it anymore

Maybe that’s why I peek around but never pushed through the door

Invisible boundary that keep me away

 I want you as long as you don’t want me

And I want to stay because you wish I would go a way

Another complexity

But this time about me