They say beauty is found within,
I wonder what I look like…

I shouldn’t be allowed to think.

What’s wrong with me?

Funny whenever I need a shrink

I can’t get myself to go

When I’m feeling fine…

They say I must have just been stressed…

Do you think they would still love me

if they saw me this way?

They say beauty is found within,

I wonder what I look like…

I feel so withered and old.

I think that if you saw me inside

I would look like a dried fall leaf

who doesn’t want to let go of the branch…

It’s so sad, you see,

because they don’t realize it’s their time to go

I want to be that branch

It’s attached to that tree

So strong and brave

It will come back next year

I’m not stupid…

I know I’m not alone…

I’m not a leaf…

God I hope it’s just for tonight…

Please let me be ok when I wake up…

I have no reason to cry but here I am…

Don’t let it be for months this time…

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  • Duff D Moss on Mar 24, 2009

    I would say from the various things I have read of your – there is a great beauty in you. Your last couple of poems I think will touch a lot of people very personally. Well done – and if you are feeling like this now, then I also hope you wake up tomorrow and all is ok too. Peace be with you dude.

  • F J McCarthy on Mar 24, 2009

    Thank you for sharing this S A. I feel this way sometimes, I wrote “Sadness without reason” to explain this feeling. You are a great writing and you are loved. Don’t let the blues get the best of you.
    Your Friend F J McCarthy

  • L Dalton on Mar 24, 2009

    This is true for many. But those suffering, need to understand they are not alone. Very good.

  • Daisy Peasblossom on Mar 24, 2009

    Nothing is ever wasted. The limb cannot grow without all those leaves; and the leaves turn into mulch needed by the tree when they fall down. We may be small parts, but needed parts. I’ve been following your writing for a while now; you are bright and beautiful within. Everyone has their dark spots. Hang in there, this, too, shall pass.

  • clay hurtubise on Mar 24, 2009

    Good piece. Focus on the day ahead, and if that is to hard, focus on the hour.
    Thanks,
    Clay

  • born2bebold on Mar 24, 2009

    Let me reiterate what the Bible says: “This too shall pass.” We all have our moments much like yours. It’s just that some are not as brave as you to come out in the open. You are special. Everyone is and Life is still beautiful, SA.

  • vim3 on Mar 24, 2009

    I have felt like that a million times…but the very fact that you are thinking along these lines indicates that you are lovely inside…as for the troubles, just remember that the only thing constant is change.

  • Kate Smedley on Mar 24, 2009

    I had a couple of days like that last week for various reasons, it’s impossible to explain the emptiness but you express it so well again. I really like ‘they don’t realise it’s their time to go…’. I hope you feel better soon.

  • macon on Mar 24, 2009

    well, this is an honest poem, full of confusion, full of emotions. i believe each of us sometimes feel that way. good work!

  • QuinMonty86 on Mar 24, 2009

    I see by all the comments ahead of me that by now you know you are not alone in feeling this way. Writers, in particular, seem to struggle with depression. Can’t say why. I know I do and to the extent that I can’t even function at times. Writing seems to help, so keep expressing yourself, even if it’s not published, a journal helps.
    Then there are times when you aren’t depressed but are able to write about it and hopefully this is one of those times. : )

  • kns1992 on Mar 25, 2009

    “God I hope it’s just for tonight…
    Please let me be ok when I wake up…
    I have no reason to cry but here I am…
    Don’t let it be for months this time…”
    those are my favorite lines. Beautiful poem. So sad. I’ve definitely been here before.

  • rutherfranc on Mar 26, 2009

    somber.. sad.. gloomy.. but still uplifting because of the prayer.. there is hope, not just for tonight but forever..

  • Poetic Enigma on Mar 26, 2009

    Very well expressed,
    This is deep and intense.
    I wonder the same thing too
    at times.
    I hope you feel better

  • Dee Gold on Mar 31, 2009

    Writing can be our outlet to express ourselves.
    I hope the best for you.God bless,my friend!

  • Mrs M on Mar 31, 2009

    By chance…do you write fictional pieces or things that you either can relate to or have known someone who went thru it. You have an wonderful way of putting emotion into poetry!

  • spiritwalker on Apr 2, 2009

    it is often thought that your best work is done in sorrow. I think that this is true. The emotions are so strong. with this said….sorrow is so much more intense I believe. Your work is beautiful, earthy and sad…your words ring true to my heart.

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