I’ve had chronic pain for most of my life and I recently found out that I have Fibromyalgia. I wrote this during a really bad flare. I was in a lot of pain and in a really bad mood.

I’m locked up inside of myself
No one understands me but me
And sometimes I don’t even know myself                                                     
I put up a front and I hide my fear
You’ll never see me cry
You’ll never see my tears.                                                                                            
I don’t like to be weak; l want to be strong
But I’ve had this pain for way too long.
It’s breaking me down…all the way down
Every day it gets harder to hide this frown.
Every day it gets harder just to be me.

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  • loualbert on Sep 15, 2009

    I feel for you pain, and it must be terrible, but I regret to say here that this poem sounds more like a declaration in prose than any kind of poetry fixed or free style for that matter. This seems to be written in free style which is easy and hard to do at the same time. when you write in free style for you have enough freedom to experiment you have to try to go all the way with the poetic diction, not to leave nothing to chance that it might sound like prose.

    I wish you better in your life.

    Will you check me out on the site, please?

  • kayla chavez on Sep 16, 2009

    hi im kayla and im fifteen.. i also have fibromialia and i know how hard it is to deal with:( reading your poem was like reading my everyday thoughts and feelings.. and i just wanted to ask you how old are you and how long have you been dealing with fybromyalia? and what are your favorite things that help you cope? just curious.. because im running out of things to help:/

  • Cristina Olvera on Sep 17, 2009

    I’m 29 and I was just diagnosed 2 months ago, but I’ve probably had it most of my life. I’m still trying to figure out the things that help. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like anything does. I try to laugh as much as possible. Staying positive and happy despite the pain and everything else is so important. I hold on to my faith and I hold on to hope and I somehow manage to make it through the day. Keep your head up and don’t let anyone ever get away with calling you lazy or crazy!

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