(JUST WRITING)

This poetry is not a mystery… it is plain to see

how people change in life, so unexpectedly.

I had a love in my life, in fact she was my wife

she was the idea woman and stood by me through strife.

I loved her completely, LORD knows that’s true

but my lifestyle kept me in bondage without a clue.

Then out of the blue, things started to change

my life was with GOD and my mind rearranged.

I made some bad decisions… I do admit

after my divorce with my wife, I later had a fit.

Why did I have to make such a drastic change?

Why did our lives become so strange?

And to top it off… she began to use

she fell for someone else, but was being abused.

Her situation got worse after some time

I found all this out, while I was confined.

I felt terrible to know, that she was in despair

so I sent her a letter and told her I still cared.

After two years… I finally got to see her again

we made a commitment, to always be friends.

But since we have so much history in our past

We got physically involved, very fast.

I didn’t care that she was still using, every other day

even my mom felt compassion and asked her to stay.

Mom new that she didn’t have anyone and was homeless

my heart was shattered because she was feeling hopeless.

The pain was unbearable from her lying all the time

I started to wonder… if she would ever be mine.

Eventually… I ended up using once again

I was feeling lonely, confused and without a friend.

So I figured, that if I use with her, we could spend more time

I once again started to feel like I was confined.

And to top it off she started to push me totally away

I was being hurt in such a way, I was starting to decay.

I noticed and saw some things, that reached my core

These were things… I just couldn’t ignore.

So, I finally got enough courage, to walk out the door

I guess I had enough… I couldn’t take it anymore.

I left her house that day and I felt like a piece of dirt

I felt so angry at myself, I wanted to tear my shirt.

Angry because, I allowed her to walk all over me

I guess GOD will deal with her one day or eventually.

I don’t wish her the worse, I hope she opens her eyes

And sees that her health and life, can not be compromised

So GOD… please protect her in this time of need

and give her enough courage and strength in order to succeed.