You lied to me

You lied to me when we were alone all those nights

You lied to me every time I fell asleep in your arms and felt like every thing was going to be okay

You lied to me every time you looked at me like I was the only woman in the world and I felt like the most beautiful woman alive

You lied to me every time I woke up to look at you smiling watching me sleep and I felt like I had finally found where I belonged

You lied to me when you said I was beautiful and I believed you because it felt so good.

You lied to me when you said I was amazing and I believed you because I wanted to believe it had to be true

I believed all those lies because the truth is I am not beautiful or amazing

You lied to me when you said you had feelings for me and I believed you because I believed you were going to come back to me

You lied to me when you said you were hurt too and I believed you because it hurt me a little less

Maybe I believed all those things because the truth was too much to handle

The truth is every time you looked at me you thought of another

The truth is every time I woke up to you smiling you weren’t really smiling 

The truth is every time you said I was beautiful you didn’t mean it

The truth is every time you said I was beautiful or amazing you were lying 

The truth is every time you said you had feelings for me and you were hurt too you were saying only what you knew I wanted to hear

Maybe you do have feelings for me and all those nights we so gladly shared were more than a dream come true

However in the end, although my heart breaks and my soul cries, I will do the only thing I can

I’ll try to forget everything we only ever had in my heart

The cold hard truth is you were never mine and you never wanted to be

All those nights I saw only what I wanted to see

However maybe the truth is a little more complicated

Maybe you do have feelings for me

Maybe you miss me just like I miss you

Neither of us will ever admit it to each other

That’s our secret to carry our pathetic pride holds us up for now but will it last

I’ll never know if you fell but in between the jokes, the stupid little fights and the late nights I fell in love and now I can’t make my heart forget

You may have lied to me but I love you now as I did before and that may never change