I never thought

it was possible

To live solely for one person

To wake up every morning

Just because someone needed me

It was such a sweet dark obsession

Basing my purpose on your existence

And like a drug, I was addicted

The very thought of a life without you

preyed on my sanity

I believed that until I met you

I had never really lived

Because suddenly

My dark world had light

I could see for the very first time

I was insane, crazy, possessed

My life entirely depended on yours

And for a while, for a long time

I didn’t mind

Because before you

I had been nothing

I was no one

I often looked back

Desperately craving for you

I would walk out

in the middle of the night

And ask why

you had to come into my life

only to leave

Why you opened my eyes

only to blind me more

Why you made my life’s meaning

focus on just you

And I swear,

in those nights

I wanted to die

I probably even did

a thousand and one times

And every one of those times

I died with a smile on my face

I was a ghost until you saw me

and shined the light of the world on me

Now I try to pluck those memories

from my mind

I try to outrun

this misery you left behind

I try to live like

you were never there

But dawning light

takes me back

to that psychotic chamber

of absolute madness

And I have to live

to remember

You’re not a part of me anymore

You never really were

Because I made you up

And I took you away

Because you never really existed