With closed eyes and an open mind, I lay thinking about all the things in life that mean the most to me. I think of the earth and its beauty. I think of the people so busy, but mainly. . . I think of you. You are the first thought when I wake and the last when I sleep. I feel you near me even when we are apart. I have never felt this connected. It’s as if our hearts have melded into one and no matter the distance or the troubles, neither of us would change a thing. To pull us apart would be to kill us. For once that love is found… that unbelievable bond is made… we could not exist knowing what we once had, we’d never have again. The lost love of a now broken heart. We once thought we were lonely, but only after finding each other did we know what true loneliness was. To love unconditionally and be held back. To want and yearn but never be able to touch.  Thoughts drift but the image of you is in my mind every time I close my eyes. Wishing to fall asleep and dream of you, but finding it harder to wake up each time. A small death to my heart knowing I’m again alone and away from the one I love. Slowly opening my eyes only to stare out into the slowly darkening sky. The nights’ stars shining so brightly… How I wish you could be here to look at them with me. To feel your arms around me and bask in your warmth. Yet I am alone still… You are my dream, my desire, my best friend, and soul mate. I long for the day when we can truly become one. For you to become my forever lover and constant companion.  Oh yes… I dream of you… probably more than you would think. You tell me of your thoughts and desires and how you miss me so. We cannot go a day without speaking and we’d never want to. Is it wrong to be this addicted? Can I love someone too much? It is a good thing we are both this obsessed. This unhealthy love and strain on our hearts. Needing each other too much, loving each other too much and still not being able to touch. To touch and feel more then what our minds can make real. Some days, I can close my eyes and feel you holding me but I know it is only my imagination… my wishful thoughts and our desires. To say I love you twenty times a day for no reason other than it is what we feel… To never get enough of each other, no matter how long we speak. Time blurs and before we knew it we had come so far from when we first met. The images of memories flash before my eyes; The first declaration of love, how timid you were when first we kissed, how cute you are when you get angry, how funny you can be just so that I smile, and how far you will go to show just how much you care… I fall more and more in love with you each day…  No matter what I do or who I talk to, it’s always you that I really want. Once so flirty with everyone and so uncertain of what I wanted or who I was. You have captured my heart, my soul, and my nearly every thought. I cannot fight the feelings I have for you, nor do I want to.  You have stolen my heart and I’ll never ask for it back. I take your heart in turn, instead and keep it safely inside. Never to let it drop or be exposed to the cruel world around us. To keep it dear and protect it with all that I am. To return the love you have given and treat you as you deserve. I love you more and more each day… I cannot help it.  The way I feel, I may never be able to fully express, but I hope and pray that no matter what I say, you can always feel it and know it’s pure and true and with every bit of my being, I belong to you. I have given my heart to you and there can never be anyone else to take your place.