Looking back, I see it clearly.
The whole night in prospective.
Where did I go wrong?
No one knows.
But I do. I know the truth.
The fault lies within my heart, something I’m not willing to admit out loud.
I’m ashamed to say, that I saw the problem long before.
Your anger and impatience
When I was late, when I didn’t smoke,
Or drink when you wanted me to.
I should have ended it when it began.
But you blinded me,
Showing me lies from the beginning.
And when truth broke out: anger.
A fiery blast from a dragon within, smacking, punching, and bruising me.
Why, oh why did I put up with that?
Lies, lies of love.
Promises you made?
    Broken.
Things you said?
    Contradicted.
My mind lost in a sea of lies, that even you, the creator, couldn’t keep up with.
And yet I… I believed.
I told myself that this was normal.
You were just having a bad day.
Until you pulled out the
    gun-
My heart raced, I backed away-
my first mistake. Never run.
Your black eyes…
I saw through them that second.
Your evil. Your hate. Your spite.
When you closed one eye and aimed,
I knew it was over.
Never the less, it was a step into the light.
I saw clearly, where I had gone wrong.
But then it was too late.
The bullet came in slow motion, straight for my skull.
Too fast to move, too slow to forget.
I’m glad my dad caught you there, holding your gun.
It pleases me to say, that you ran for your life,
After you nearly took mine.
Now I listen to those sweet tears falling around me,
and slowly close my eyes.
The darkness takes over and with my last breath I ask:
Why me?