rain knocking on my window

or is it only my pounding chest and tears?

my reflection, a deeply troubled palette

distorted confusion of all my fears

all my strength to free me from my restraints is not enough

lost, is my spirit incarnate

I’m not the person i was, nor will i ever be again

my insides do not flow the same, my heart is hard like garnet

I’m screaming from my insides, out

i am bleeding from my outsides, in

i need to find redemption

for this disease to rid my skin

every wall i hit, i break some more

the seething monsters that swamp my sea

lead me into the light

out of this darkness, bring fourth clarity