What she told me just totally, completely and utterly filled me rage. My knee jerk reaction was to enscribe it on a page. Visions of waging war on a tiny suburban town, deconstructing a house. The anger that flows through me I need to release, need to let loose and maybe it will cease. Maybe the time will stop so i can feel numb, the numbess will calm me down and make me feel at peace. Maybe, just maybe……can i let this all go, I feel sick inside, cannot describe the pain, cuts life like a knife into my soul. Unbearable pain, why? I had unwavering faith and now that faith has been obliterated with a few solitary words. Rhetoric can kill your passion, can murder your trust. Can eradicate the beauty of the human soul, the joy of daily life. Every day I take a breath, I thank God for being here, for being alive. But sometimes I wish that breath would cease. Why oh why, is this world so wicked? A figure I looked up to and believed in, dragged himself down to murky waters. Muddy trenchland, he might as well have taken a gun to my head, a bomb to my sanity. It’s a mystey you know, how people can be so cold. A mystery how life can make you feel so old, a mytery how love can turn to hate….and all in one day. 

Make it go away.