Love Life: In the Thirties

Ask Cash on Jun 10, 2009

Tags: Extended family, life expectancy

Dealing with another birthday!

As I finish celebrating yet another birthday,

I look back at the 31 years that have been my life span.

I feel older than I look (hopefully you’ll agree)!

I wonder why one must cheer with friends

on each birthday that passes by?

Is it not bad enough that a permanent

reminder of your mortality exists?

Is it not enough that with each birthday

you are reminded that one day you shall die?

For me birthday’s are not as cheerful as they once were.

No games, no friends of mine near me.

Yes people come, wish me,bring me gifts

they are my husband’s colleagues.

They do it because it is expected.

My friends are scattered in far off places

where their husbands have taken them.

I truly am alone.

With my small nuclear family to look after.

There are no extended family near me

nor my parents or siblings.

I am alone with myself.

With my own expectations of life

with unfullfilled wishes

with a husband and son who love me

who need me, but can’t give me

what I crave for.

What do I crave for?

Something beyond my reach

even beyond my comprehension

in my waking conscious mind.

Live goes on, luv life and

welcome to the thirties.

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Daisy Peasblossom on Jun 10, 2009
Happy Birthday! You have many years to celebrate ahead of you. That yearning thing comes to all of us at times.
ken bultman on Jun 11, 2009
Believe me, the best is yet to come. Many happy returns. I know you miss your family…it’s a trailing spouse syndrome.
Ask Cash on Jun 11, 2009
Voices of experience and care thank you…
for not poking fun at me!
mdartist on Jun 11, 2009
Well, happy happy birthday or should I say day? Really all days are the same and we make them what we want (if it is possiblly in our control). I had a sister who made Christmas everyday. She loved it! Always giving and never receiving. But I know now that she definately receives her: Manstion on the hill with my Lord and all the blessing that this emplies! May God bless all your days ahead!
moteintheeye on Jun 11, 2009
Happy birthday. I remember when i was young,well sometimes i do. Your are not alone.

motie
JoseI on Jun 11, 2009
Happy bithday.
clay hurtubise on Jun 11, 2009
lol, nice job! I celebrate because I’m always amazed that I made it another year!
Thanks,
clay
Rose Christine on Jun 11, 2009
Great write, as usual.
Dehan Nathaniel on Jun 11, 2009
Happy Birthday,we are rocking the same boat.
DA Cournean on Jun 11, 2009
My 25th was the most traumatic for me! It gets better!
Lostash on Jun 11, 2009
I hit 41 shortly and I DO know what you mean…but you musn’t let it get you down, as there is nothing you can do about it! Live in every moment if you can!! Chin up!!
Gail Gunter on Jun 11, 2009
Time does fly by and leaves us all with the what if’s. All to well know the feelings that you speak of, as my family too is scattered far and wide. Not to long ago, I hit 41 so I say Happy Birthday and continue to leave your thoughts here with us. See, there are others out there in the same boat. Where it will take us? Grab a paddle and lets find out together.
Cashmere Lashkari on Jun 11, 2009
Gail I want that boat!
My bday was on the 8th, the poem got published a bit later…Thanks for the wishes guys!
t simon on Jun 12, 2009
hope you had a great birthday
HelloSiti on Jun 12, 2009
30 is not old enough.

Think: you are young!
California Dreamer on Jun 12, 2009
Happy Birthday, and remember to think to yourself, your only as old as you let yourself feel. Think young, live young, be young
Ask Cash on Jun 12, 2009
I know CDreamer, At heart I am young!
Hello Siti, u really think so?
t simon I guess I did in a fashion.
My hubby got me JLos Glow!
Juhls on Jun 16, 2009
Well written, but I feel sad to sense the melancholy in your perception of your birthday and different aspects of life. So I wish you a birthday of beauty, a new year that has forward momentum towards the things that bring you the most joy, and for you to have strong and happy connections with your family, no matter how far they are from you.
Ask Cash on Jun 16, 2009
Thanks for those wonderful wishes Juhls

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