Love always puts me upside down

It kills all my hopes and dreams

I do not want to live like that

I would burry them myself

And get a shot of anti-love if I could

Now falling in love is a chemical reaction

That causes much drama

It creates art like this

But also rejection, depression and suicide

Love is pain indeed

Most of the time it is just a core

How much love really gets an answer

In this earthly life I do not think much

Most is just a waiste of time

I do not like that and hate the pain

I’m not a masochist

But falling for the wrong men

This is why I presume we would better be rational

I do not like to get emotional

This is not me

My only lover is a dildo

Thanks to Cupid’s bad archery

My hugs are my teddy bear

Nothing great: he is the man of my live

Maybe I should safe for an expensive life like doll

That might be the man of my life

He would not go to other women

And remains how I left him

He will not be a partner to reason with

But most men I met were not out for that as well

I can get a man every day

There are many that want to marry me

So they can have their papers done

They seek a licence to my country

But that is not true love for me

No I do not have looks in mind

I just look for the right heart to match mine

But I can not trust that

It always leads me astray

And make me long for the impossible

Don’t know what I see in a certain man

Now what he shows

I always hated entertainers

Still I want this one

I don’t get it since I don’t tend to be a groupie

So I move on with nothing

Just a plan of my prince charming

He matches my list somehow

How can this be

I made that years ago

When I wrote down what I liked in a man

I found one that completely did not match

But he wanted me

So I gave him a big decade chance

To find out I had better looked elsewhere

When the man I leasted wanted was in front of me

I was scared the hell

He did match my picture perfect

But I forgot to put single on it

Another lesson learnt: be hard in your picks

No I do not long for just romance

I do want a lasting relationship

Or at least to hope

I won’t give myself otherwise

I always had my vestal pride

I don’t fall in love that easy

I hate longing for somebody

Because I want a real relationship

And not something that can not be

I rather have a shot of no hope at all

So give me the needle with reason

I want to cast this one out of my heart

But I can’t

And I do not want to hold another instead

Since that makes me feel even more miserable

Give me a shot against this mess

Make me independant from men

Make me love my toys more than boys

I want my reason

My love vaccine to be happy