I see you there in My mind eye, lying and trying to get me again. Running, ran I thought I was gone. But there you are again with drama again seeking to overtake me, to grind, destroy and again forsake me. Running, ran I thought gone. There you are again, ever in front of Me. Even when I close my eyes, when I am alone and there is not a soul to hear my muted cries. Again your face with that malevolent smile, you seeking my sanity, my soul and all that I have the potential to be. You want it to destroy it all and take it all from me.

To have me on my knees with my hands behind my back, with my chin in the air prepared and ready for those unlimited smacks. Left and then a Right my eyes you would swell close. I think if you could do you would even break my nose. Face down now, with your boot on the back of my neck. Attempting to break it. To show me that I am in check. Once, twice another shot to my kidney’s again. Would be your way of showing me that you are “My’ only female friend.

Lips split and bleeding another thing that I cannot miss. Making sure that I know that yours are the only ones that I am to kiss. Alone and broken is where you wish to take me, near Death and barely breathing is your truly desire for me. Your Ragdoll or toy but never a Husband to be. The glare in your eyes, the hatred you try to hide. Please explain again to the Court Commissioner one more time, to them that you lied? Pain, Rage and Broken is where you want me to be.

Am I that “Evil” of a man that you would do this to me?!