I wear my own beliefs

like an over-sized veil

but i learned way back under the brooding wing of darkness

that we all have our imperfections

sometimes you just need to know where to find them

and in the silence so still

solace so ill

i lay myself bare

the speakers are screeching secrets loud and clear

i am my own witness

the splinters of sincerity i tried to bury

stab their way on through

and i find myself debating

the cost of exiting reality through my mind

the sun dance with the axes

swimming in the blood pools of my brain

why do i stop to hesitate?

rejection beckons me to run

wild into the shattered chanting corpses

that string out the nightfall

each and every break

they intensify the hate

can you identify the madness?

that ugly face that holds your weakness

but mine is just a torn open inner slide

the burrowing of maggots; the recollection

they feed me back my own guilt

and my only baring on this world

is my scarred skin

burning of the outside – in

i am my own human ashtray

to snuff out all hope of any normality

and just when you think you recognize a face

skimming across the muddy puddles edge

just know it’ll easy fade back away again

and in this naked exposure

truth is pounding in my own ears

my vision blurred a crimson shade

lure me on into the nightmares of me awake

with hands riddled with such temper they ache

my demons i clasp to shake

down the ceiling protection

where all the memories are stale

and the future is undone

fold it in and shatter the trails of woven damages

insomniac to this ticking clock

that doesn’t ripple light when eyelids are spread wide open

flickering a curse

these revelations are much worse

then your petty insecurities that are at stake

stretch to invent my own fantasies

where these four walls will divide

and no longer will i be facing up, exploring down

imploding in and winding round

self mutilation of soul i have invested my world in

with this manipulation of a worn out dream catcher

dusty, i have caved myself in

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