I have always had this need to rush though time

Never experiencing today trying to find my prime

I turned away from the silly ways of being a teen

I went from being a child to an adult with no in between

Now I find myself looking for the adolescents I left behind

That part of myself I lost I am struggling to find

The side of me that likes to laugh, sing and dance

Dress up in pretty clothes, strut my stuff and prance.

I am crushing on men as if I was a girl and they were boys

I find myself batting my eyes and being coy

If they don’t call I panic and worry was it something I said

I am too old for this drama I’ve got to get these thoughts out of my head

I can’t go back I have to live life now I can’t live in the past

I can’t crush on boys I want a man whose love will last

I was so young when I gave away my youth, started to live an adult life

I have already been married I have been someone’s partner someone’s wife

We married to soon we were young yet we believed we were old

Now I find myself crushing like a teen searching for someone to hold.