25 i was burnt once already by love lost

3rd degree decisions that you made where at my cost

26 you where in a hurry to bury the hatchet you tossed

its still kinda blurry i worry for whats gone

27 i reminisce on the often back to when i was your John

you said we would be closer than we are and i long,

28 to hold you in my arms, like the times after dinner at yer moms

or reading from the torah the traditions of so long,

29 laggin on a cigarette till after yer dads gone,

laffing with yer sister at whatever Jeff had on

30 lookin at the list of memories its mad long,

how’d i let this end, tellin myself my angel wont be mad long.

31 keep it to yer self john, everybodys heard sad songs

i’ve grown away from the immaturities i’ve owned

32 found somthin in myself nobody else had slammed on

brought it directly to my endzone live via microphone.

42 when you used to compress my chest,

you said youd always be there regardless,

43 Even through the hardest & the darkest of days

i was straight amazed at how down you where for us

44 the downest girl worth the world, better yet she’s priceless

the nicest pearls id ever seen, on a peach in late spring.

45 At the beach you make the waters come,

just like you invited ‘em.

46 Enticed’em into eden for some eatin for the evening,

but the time had come for the guests to get to leavin.

47 With the light you often emit when you smile,

could keep the fire i fight for lit for a while.

48 I stay lit like my desire to straight spit, it inspires my insight,

keep yer sights set to see queens,welcome them as company.

IIII.
49 okay somebody make this bitch leave, i am obscene things

a man more mistaken morning, nite noon & evening

50 i fight for the right things at all of the wrong times,

and then would have beef cause i’d sleep & the fight was all mines

51 like i was gregory hines, tap dancin as a distraction

on top of live land mines, i learn sutle lessons of life

52 each time i lose mine, i wont lose this time,

i got a treasure to go after, that i treasure divine

53 Fiendish at times, the times tell themselves,

my mind made itself, upto remind its own self

54 what i need, what i want inbetween

problematic times made problems seem bad at times,true indeed

55 But my rhymn by my side made the time travel by

out of sight out of mine,inside me inside i’m

56 Destine 4 life of rhymn, reality wasnt me wasted time,

wanted what wasnt mine, worry free was me until i lost my sheep

57 without admitting defeat or gettin beat by the grief,

upon further review, i just wanna say peace.

58 thats what you said to me

so why try to lie to me

59 dead to me is all you are now, finally

taken back the space that i once let you occupy inside of me.

60 finally i got back what i once gave,

finally my contract wont send me to my grave.

61 finally ill behave

finally after all these years of being a slave.

62 finally when they find me they’ll have nuthung bad to say

either way they’ll find me smiling in my grave.

niether of us, were ever close enough, to giving a fuck to focus on the both of us

in comes the who what, the why where, did i care? i guess not,my nightmare was

right there ,never having the intention to fight fair.

I lie there……..its quite clear……..the ends here.