hurt and pain and destruction,love is all in my heart , seems my life will never be the same.
Past is the past , but the past always remains in your mind heart and soul, and always 9 time out of 10
remains in your future, when your trying to move on and heal. Some things are never forgotten, like glue
now its just stuck to you. Feeling of having to carry on your sleeve, not like your heart, a tragic more less
made to remind you every single day of how mistakes takes toll on someone, a reminder to be careful not to take life
or what you have for granted, to make you a stronger person, mentally knowing that two wrongs don’t make a right.
Which does cross you mind , but then again there where you stop yourself for a moment unlike the person before and realize that one mistake
can cost you more than what you already been though and you still have that love in your heart, to not make that choice
that can really destroy your life, even though emotions till you different sometimes. Your mind saying let the other person
feel what you’ve have been put though, worry, sad, angry, unloved, not good enough, not able to trust anyone, or even
believe what you hear anymore, how you can’t be the person you where anymore, or not knowing anymore who you are. To be
reminded everyday how you weren’t important enough to be thought of or loved enough in that moment, not to even think twice,
not to care enough knowing how it feels to be just to be thrown away with the rest of the unwanted trash, to be torn apart
shredded and to be crushed, not to be recycled and just to be in a pile to rot. God was it really worth it? was I really
that horrible to care about? does it really matter to you if I make the same mistake? Would it actually do any harm?
Would you even feel anything? Questions that you wonder, for the honest answers wanted to be found out.To understand
every time you want to know about the mistake, to get facts or have questions about what really happen, it makes
that person mad or starts a fight,to be shut out, why not talk about,or what else is hiding.
 To stop yourself because all the dignity you have left is knowing that you are not that person to destroy someones life.
Even though you think the other person derseves to feel the same, the guilt would take the rest of you that is left.