My Baby Boy Kye

Paula Mitchell Bentley on Oct 6, 2008

Tags: babies, Baby, child, death, depression, Dreams, Empty, empty arms, grief, Life, loss, lost, miscarriage, pregnancy, sadness

Loss, miscarriage, and perhaps hope for the future. Societal views of miscarriage do not help people trying to recover from loss. Feels of depression and grief are overwhelming some days while others there are tiny glimpses of hope for the future.

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I cannot believe you died inside of me.

Some people say it must have been meant to be.

I wonder if they have ever lost a child.

They do not understand it drives you wild.

I will never know what just went wrong.

I wonder about it all day long.

I dream of holding you every night.

When I wake up, nothing is at all right.

You are gone and my arms are both empty.

I am still wondering how this could be.

It seems like babies are everywhere.

New mothers are smiling without a care.

Everyday I cry and don’t know what to do.

I wish that I could join the happy mommy crew.

Perhaps we will try it again.

I don’t know how things would be then.

My heart would shatter if we lost another.

All I want is to be Kye’s mother.

Kye is gone now, rest in peace.

If only my heart would rest in peace too.

xox

We love you baby Kye

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Paula Mitchell-Bentley on Oct 6, 2008
Check out the ads to the right of my poem, often offers baby stuff! Crazy. Not exactly the kind of advertising that should be there! Oh well, better to laugh than cry. Sorry if this offends anyone… No control over the advertising.
gabbic1219 on Nov 10, 2008
this is a very touching write…im am deeply sorry ,i take it u were several months throu to kno u were having a boy(kye)i do feel for you truly,i am a mother of 4 girls and a miscarriage is still death!
Star27 on Feb 11, 2009
Paula – Another heartbreaking piece. I hope writing is helping you through this sadness.

I totally agree with you about the adverts!! I said exactly the same thing on mine!! I too was worried about women reading mine who had similar experiences and seeing those everywhere!! Very insensitive but unfortunately nothing can be done about it apparantly (I asked)

Gabbic1219 – sometimes mummy’s just know. I knew Keer was a boy before anyone told me. You’re right, a miscarraige is still a death …. but… I didn’t receive one sympathy card…. for some people it is easier for them to think that it is not the same. Sadly these are usually the people who haven’t expereinced losing a baby.

Thoughts are with you Paula

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