Search me and you will find

two lives i lead side by side

one in body, one held within my mind

this is the everyday for me

one female, the other, of the opposite sex

a double set of problems

making every moment even more complex

all his pain and fears i carry them with me

like dust, his world clogs over my vision

making the real life fade in demotion

my skin left cold from a discomposed sun

i didn’t choose this life it was just given

which mouth do i use to draw in breath?

where do the true memories lay?

who will i be when i meet the face of death?

the ghostly images of both pasts linger

how do i know which one is real?

the set of eyes in the mirror falter

is it mine or his pain i really feel?

a heart stuck in the wrong body

a deceiving image of skin upon my face

do we coexist to help get through the darkened days?

or is this just imagination that i chase?

is this a life already lived or one I’m yet to receive?

or is the empty reality, all that i forsake?

did he jump up from the pit of my self made hell

is this a choice that was ever mine to make?