Take a breath from what is said
Confessing in the back of my mind
Wondering how this gets caught up with me
Every day and through the nights;
Lying awake trying to face the outside.
With hope in my eyes and the hurt inside this heart,
I can’t explain what I am going through.
Can’t sing the write lyrics out or play it out in melodies on my guitars.
I’ll express it out loud with words,
And scream inside my mind.
Believe me. Some hurting soul,
Just like the rest of my fellow brothers and sisters going through the roller coaster.
I love God so much anymore.
The only person I can depend on with my whole life.
Friendships fading. Feeling tired all the tired.
So sick from the sorrow that keeps me crying all over again
So sick of a friendship that goes off and on,
That I’m saying goodbye for good.
Catch me and find me;
I ain’t coming back or falling all over again.
My mind got me crying out in prayers.
Non-stop singing of hymns that blast in my brain
Musical side of me is coming out more each day
I got a screaming conscience that doesn’t make sense to me anymore;
Being held harder each day by God’s love to just pass the time.
Anxiety and depression don’t stop.
Seeing my own brother suffer from his own problems and pressures,
From so called friends they say that want him to party and drink non-stop.
Got a mother who cries off and on from a life she could have better,
A dad who is uptight about his work.
And a friend suffering from a dad who has cancer.
News got me shaken again. People dying. Hurting. Frustrated
What is the world doing? Not the place I wish I was
I don’t feel like I belong anymore.
Or fit in with the rest. I’m out there. Outcast
I’m standing firm with the faith.
Rather be with God anymore
Or run to the spot I dreamt about.
The beach that takes me to the true peace,
Of God and the angels singing out there songs.
I don’t wanna be here anymore!
There’s someone else going through the same stuff.
Crying out for someone like me to hear them out
I’m not dumb. I know it’s true.
They sing their song out just like I do.
I gotta find them to help them out!
And let God handle the rest.
I’m not the same kid. Same girl.
This life will be hard. 
Could I run away from this hurt?
Not going to but run to God for this hurt anymore.
I feel so messed up. No. Not ready for things.
These plans are haunting me up but I will face,
The crowd one day. With this ache and tears in my eyes,
To see the pearly gates shine into me brighter than my eyes can see.
For now, I’ll face the world with this thought in the back of my mind.
Dear God, If you hear me out. I gotta find you somewhere but here.
I gotta move on. I gotta move on from this.
Let it go. The friendship ain’t worth it. 
Gotta move on. I wanna move on,
And be happy again!
Like the dream I found you and the person who said,
“You never left me. Your going to be here with me.”
Never the same will I see my life the same
Never the same I will be,
But a life that will be waiting for me.