The sound of those around me cuts like a knife

I feel the surge within and I squirm in my seat

Can’t get comfortable, I’m too unsettled

My soul burns inside me like a flow of lava

I am a volcano waiting to erupt

Too many thoughts of others

They push in on me and fill me with their sickness

Their hate and anger and bitter contempt

My shields wear thin and I am breaking down

Bring me peace and serenity

For there is a world inside of me

Within this darkness, a light that I can’t find

A roar of frustration builds

Swallowed in my throat before it can escape

No one can see me for what I am

This animal yearns to break its cage

Release me from this culture of pain

Fear me, free me, feel me, love me

Hold me close and give me what I need

Let me have your life, I only want a little

Enough to kill this death inside

Green eyes flash with hunger

Fingers itch with the need to feed

And still I must resist

If only they knew what I was thinking now

I close my eyes and breath

Steady, steady, steady

Hold it together girl, you can do this

I leave my desk and walk away

Green death staring at those that I pass

Need to get away from them

I can’t trust myself today

My beast is tearing me from within

Slashing claws and teeth

Punishing me for denying it

I huddle in the bathroom, sweating and shaking

I close my eyes and breath

Steady, steady, steady

Hold it together girl, you can do this

Release me from this culture of pain

Fear me, free me, feel me, love me

Hold me close and give me what I need

Let me have your life, I only want a little

Enough to kill this death inside

Tame my beast let her purr once more today…