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I bought a table

Built for four,

Sent invitations

To my front door,

We will sit and talk

Until the night is through,

One person missing

And you know it’s you.

I should hate you,

But I only despise,

Holding anger inside

Would not be wise,

Scars still colored

Red, black and blue,

The pain will linger,

You believe it too.

I cried so many tears,

They made a river swell,

The dam held them

Until the hammer fell,

I often wonder how

You live with your self,

Now I have placed you

On the bottom shelf.

Sometimes a nightmare

Shows me your pain,

It does not bother me,

I was Abel, you were Cain,

After time has passed,

After the years I grew,

I disowned you,

You know it’s true.

Sunlight glistens,

I kneel and pray,

That your memory

Will fade away,

I open my eyes,

But ever you are there,

I have to learn how

Not to care.