I have no answers to my problems.

The only things I see are constant distractions.

Which are only Crutches and seem to disappear on key to make things worse.

I try my hardest, only to fall back another step in life.

I try to hide my self-pity in many ways, only to lead to further problems when I do reveal my issues.

Denial at the very hint of my problems, “You are O.K!”, they always say, “You’re Just Having A Bad Day!”, little do they know the extent of my burps. I try to get help. I try to say something. Nowhere, it always leads. No way out of this misery. Only life, service, and death.

With no solutions and outside perspectives, I find myself metaphorically screwed.

Mentally, physically, and spiritually. At the end of the day it is always the same feelings without my crutches to maintain sanity. I cannot describe the hell I have made for myself, only doing so will lead to more problems. There is no solution…no way out. Only this circle or crap we call life. People only see what they want to believe. People think everything is perfect. No solution…no way out of this. Too far to go back. Already gave up at early childhood. The only thing left for me is misery, and what I like doing…which leads to more misery.