The new year has rung in and it’s the beginning of something new, 

so then why the hell am I feeling so down and blue? I’ve got an 

addiction I can’t quite deal with, its called paying bills, I look unto 

God for help not to swallow all these pills. My life is a battle & I 

used to take it in stride, but now a days seems like all I do is sit

and abide. got friends that are strangers and family that don’t 

understand, hoping somewhere in those clouds God’s got MY plan!

I get a rush of sadness when I think about some, but then again 

what do I care they don’t know where I’m from. I live in sadness

and sorrow in the shadow of my tears, but really for real it’s my

kids futures I fear! I take care of mines and that’s just that, my

heart and soul run deep for my babies & that’s a fact! gotta

figure out this struggle anyway that I can, cause living like this is like

living in an hour glass full of sand!