Living with borderline personality disorder..a slight insight into mood switching when it comes to loved ones.

I push and push and push

receive without a word of thanks

comatose driven delirium

in this sheltered cage

i want you too close to the touch

feel your every emotion

seeping through the tips of my organs

transforming deluded fixation

into the forests bolting in you

the single sentence that brings me back

to my dissected paranoia

with the rendering of your presence

makes me want to rake my soul

splintered skin, weeping fork

the shift in condition

stifling complexity of madness

throbbing through my veins

i fucking hate you

want to smell your diseased flesh

burning at the stake

your head torn off and oozing

stuffed with bulging maggots

escaping from your eyes

my souvenir of your decisions

hanging ungraciously upon my wall

love, i do not know the term

the statement of a million falsities

you resolve your warmth against

my tender abused body

all forgotten but not locked away

released like sickly cannon barricades

the entrapment of instability

just waiting for another shot

to bleed on fourth without immunity

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Comments (11)
  • Atanacio on May 18, 2010

    I love the flow this write carries well done :) Frank

  • Matthew Bonadio on May 18, 2010

    Very well done. Several people in my family have borderline personality disorder.

  • flame007 on May 18, 2010

    great write!

  • giftarist on May 18, 2010

    Guess I have this disorder too.

  • Lady Fantasy on May 18, 2010

    Doesnt have borderline personality but knows someone who does.But I do have a disorder that drives me just as crazy.A good flow of words and well done.

  • Ruby Hawk on May 18, 2010

    I have family member with border line personality disorder. I know what a struggle it is for the patient and the whole family.

  • TwiKnight on May 18, 2010

    May they rot like lepers… just kidding. Just read about it in wiki and it did not sound the least bit fun. Must be Wonderwoman to cope through all this:
    \’The disorder typically involves unusual levels of instability in mood; black and white thinking, or splitting; chaotic and unstable interpersonal relationships, self-image, identity, and behavior; as well as a disturbance in the individual\’s sense of self. In extreme cases, this disturbance in the sense of self can lead to periods of dissociation.\’

  • XXElleXX on May 19, 2010

    A frightening piece about the horrors of borderline personality disorder Shadow.

  • rajaryanme on May 19, 2010

    Nice poem

  • sara20 on May 19, 2010

    Nice to read this piece.

    Keep writing more about it. It is really gracefully and very well written skill.

    Thanks for sharing.

    Cheers.

    Sara:

  • Jimmy Shilaho on May 19, 2010

    Another good one. I really think you have enough good pieces to fill an anthology.

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