Only 3 Words

Why do I find it so hard to say?

It’s only 3 words, I speak hundreds a day,

Should be easy for me, should be able to shout,

But each time I try the words just won’t come out.

I know you shouldn’t judge everyone on your past,

But I said those 3 words to the one I had last,

And he took them from me and he stamped on them hard,

He left me feeling lonely, humiliated and scarred.

I know you’re not him, but its hard to trust again,

Because for me “hurt” goes together with “men”,

Since I met you the real me has returned,

My confidence is back even though I got burned.

Im happy with you, more than I dreamed I could be,

My smile is back, you found the real me,

I’ve fallen for you and it feels so good,

So why can’t I say the words that I should?

Emily Warden. 23-02-2005