Looking at the pictures of us at my grandpa’s house,
while they always bring tears to my eyes.
Every feeling rushing back to me,
while I remember all of your lies.

With every smile I see,
brings a dull ache to my heart.
Hoping all the things will go away,
while knowing it wasn’t easy from the start.

Still loving you with every passing year,
while we are both living with someone new.
Wanting to let go of all the pain bottled up inside,
but it always reminds me of you.

No longer seeing the person I used to be,
for you took the best years of m life.
Stuggling to let go of all the memories held deep,
for now you have someone else as your wife.

Wanting you to come back to me in the end,
but you never wanted me to know what was true.
Reading over every letter from the past,
while you strung me along with you.

Realizing that life will never again be,
while I try to throw all the things you once gave me away.
Knowing you will soon have to leave the Army,
but not wanting you to realize that day.

Holding in all the feeling I still have for you,
while my life is slowly falling apart.
Dreaming of what used to be my life with you,
but knowing it was never true from the start.

Loving you for many years to come,
but knowing you will never again think it’s real.
Hoping you will tell me your true feelings,
but no longer wanting you to know the pain I feel.