Lundy Bancroft "Why is he doing it" …good book, suggest it to woman like me!

You´re angry I can see it, most of all, I can feel it!
All inside is stuck, I can´t breathe in it…
any moment now and I get hurt…doesn´t matter,
if it burns my soul or my body,
                        …it´s painful and you enjoy that!

…but what happens…cool air between us?
Everything is calm again, only memory hurts still…
seems like a game of seconds… between you and anger,
how could I stand it…when there will be next moment…
              …your mind crashes and I tremble, in your hands? ..again!

Killing me slowly…that´s what you do, when you´re in the mood…
only excuses on what went wrong…. with you!
About me you´ll only find mistakes, trying to fix them…
in your own way you… want to help me get better, by making me suffer…
                         ….but you don´t understand who needs help, indeed!

Why you do that? …this makes me cry…I really felt love…
you killed it slowly..as I said,
Now I left…gone pretty far, left only pain with you…that´s all…
I never will look back, respect myself…hard it is!
                       …you can´t prove my wrongs anymore like this!

Let me heal, don´t say you are so sorry, I don´t want to hear
leave me alone, let it be…give some peace to my world of humanity!
I´m not trash, I now can feel it! remember, memorize…don´t swore a thing nomore!
I left bcoz of me, bcoz my aching mind,
                       …leave me alone, that´s all I crave right now!

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  • richardpeeej on Oct 16, 2010

    Very lovely words Inxxu, it feels as though your actually there. It is clear to see that you have put a lot of thought into this.

  • Inxxu on Oct 16, 2010

    actually yes…lot´s of thoughts, experiences, feelings…you only name it!

    Thanks for longer comment than just a nice share or great poem… because this is real life!

    Take care!
    Inxxu

  • ishinimrod on Oct 16, 2010

    This is happening in our lives. Thanks for sharing.

  • awesome11 on Oct 16, 2010

    Wonderful poem written

  • SuperMember on Oct 16, 2010

    Excellent share! :) comment my articles back

  • Wordcrafter on Oct 16, 2010

    The writes you continue to share are so real as if you are there. This feels so tragic, the thoughts you convey in this particular piece. Keep writing………

  • Inxxu on Oct 17, 2010

    Hey Wordcrafter,
    unfortunately this is life I was living…now, when I walked away I can see things much more clear than before, so I can write about…for every woman in the world to see that there is a better life for them too…

  • dino renaldo on Oct 21, 2010

    touch the bottom my soul………….

  • Inxxu on Oct 22, 2010

    Things and situations like this should do that to all of us…
    Fortunately there are people who still care!

    Have a nice day!
    Inxxu

  • Raj the Tora on Oct 28, 2010

    Wonderful poetry. But things always change to be good. In fact, good or bad is in our perceptions. Also, though it sounds moronish, it is truth. I respect it. Good that you are out of it (learnt from ur comments!)

  • nativewolf on Oct 28, 2010

    Very well written.

  • Inxxu on Oct 28, 2010

    Well yes, times must and do change…sometimes we learn it in the hard way..

    Huge applause for all commenters!
    ;)

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