I crave affection.

To be still in the gentle arms of a lover.

To sit silently side by side

On the cold sidewalk

As we let ourselves be absorbed in the world passing us by.

To lay quietly

With her breath on my chest,

Hearts bet in unison.

To have her hands slowly massage

The tangled matte of hair on my head

To have a set of eyes I can gaze into

That seem to quietly say

“It’s going to be okay, babe.”

I’d bring her coffee,

She’d bring me coffee.

Surprise her with a square,

She’d pull out a secret joint.

Maybe I am too wishful

Passing by given opportunities

Or maybe loneliness

Is to be a stronger theme in my life

Than I expected.

I hope not.

I hope there is some girl out there

Who would love to love me.

I would love to love her.

Not love like “Oh baby, I love you”

Because maybe I don’t quite know what that means

But even without that special level of connection

A boy and a girl can still

Develop a meaningful connection

And permanence?

Who said anything about that?

Nothing is absolute,

Especially in this realm.

To have a partner, a companion

In life.

Someone to share experiences with.

I miss it.

Just give me a chance.

We can learn.

We can grow from these experiences.

After all it is just an experience.

Come on, baby

Give it a chance.

I probably fucked up all the chances I had

Wanting too bad.

I tried not to,

Tried to be cool

But it probably still shone through.

Perhaps loneliness is to be more

Prevalent a theme in my life

Than I already expected.

Curse you, Universe for giving me that duty.

But if I must, I will serve you nonetheless.

Not like I have any other choice

But I feel it isn’t too much to ask

For just a little bit of company

Even for the time being.

Only time will tell

And I hope it has

An uplifting word to bring me.