I hope you comprehend what I convey. Frustrated! Upset! Resentful! Betray! my utmost desire is to be positive, so I engulf what Selena, Celia Cruz, Tito Fuentes, Elvis, Luther Vandross, Aaliyah, Gregory Heinz, Richard Pryor, Lucille Ball, Ester Role, Isabel Sanford, George Clooney, Whoopi Goldberg and Jackie Gleason say. In my rage, I thought of my parents Jacqueline, Ivan, and biological parent’s stage. Doing physical harm was definitely not the way. Like David Bloom, Daniel Pearl, Pat Harper, Peter Jennings, John Johnson and Ann Curry; I crave to report my information in an honest way.

No one sees, hears or believes me, so to Jesus Christ I pray. Geeks! Nerds! The unpopular and misunderstood! Please don’t commit suicide; please don’t lash out by doing a homicide just because your environment will not listen to your say. I empathize with your pain. I will tell you my secret: Even though I brag, “I’m tough,” my eyes rain. Exlibris assumes that I am a fraud and insane except for Mr. Tony Perry, Mr. Edward White and Mrs. Jane Larsen: TV talk shows, news media, employers, co-workers and some police stations never came.

Rosa Parks! Mother Hale! Mother Theresa! Pope John Paul II! Cardinal John O’Connor! Father Joseph! Sister Margaret! Betty Shabazz! Princess Diana! Martin Luther King Jr! Malcolm X! Ricky Martin! I am screaming, “I yearn to bring Latoyia Figueroa, Natalee Holloway, Daphne Jones, Lakeisha Archie, Ganigunt Aiemsakul, Luz Agosto, Alice Artisan, Taylor Behl, Janet March, Teketria Buggs, Alejandra Gutierrez and Andreana Jackson home.” No one is listening! No one is listening! Attorney General Robert F. Kennedy! Toni Morrison! Alice Walker! Maya Angelou! Madonna! Nikki Taylor! Iman! Ebony! Petra! Tyra!

I’m on my knees singing, “My skin is not white. My eyes are not blue. My hair is not long and blonde, my dress size is not 2; therefore I’m not news! I’m huffing! I’m puffing! John Ritter, Walter Matthau! Jack Lemmon! Flip Wilson! Freddy Prinze! Bob Hope! Queen Latifah! Wanda! Ellen! Bill Cobsy! George Lopez! Bernie Mac! Chris Rock! I look to humor; my sanity I am maintaining. Help me Harriet Tubman, George Washington Carver, Fredrick Douglass, Marie Curie, Nat Cole, Sam Cooke and Jackie Wilson: My heart hears notes singing.

I just can’t comprehend and digest Exlibris Publishing Company’s actions: It is causing my esophagus to choke. Waiting for the rest of my refund and my property is a joke. I think of Presidents George Washington, Abraham Lincoln, John F. Kennedy, Jimmy Carter, William Clinton and  Barack Obama: “I love my country,” I reaffirm as my feet smoothly soak.”Why can’t society realize I’m not the enemy? This is a nightmare!” I yelled as I woke. Michelle Obama, Beatrice Arthur! Cicely Tyson! Julia Roberts! Debbie Allen! Denzel Washington! Sandra Bullock! Susan Sarandon! Jane Mckenzie! Harry Belafonte! Jane Fonda! Sidney Poitier!

David Foster! Jesse Jackson! Quincy Jones! Berry Gordy! Clive Davis! Faith Hill! Celine Dion! Toni Baxton! Whitney Houston! I will not give up because your musical lyrics, acting abilities and political fire inspire my soul so I will never be broke. I still have rage against injustice like Sammy Davis Jr, Rita Moreno, Ray Charles, Frank Sinatra, Tupac, The Notorious BIG, Jay-Z,  Eminem, Fat Joe Destiny Child, Pink, Lisa Presley, Eve, LL Cool J, Jada Pinkett Smith, Tim McGraw, Nelly, P Diddy, Sting, Ludacris, Jamie Fox and Will Smith take me seriously; I am not a joke. I dream to be on American Idol, America’s Next Top Model even more;   I wish to be on NYPD Blues, CSI Las Vegas, All My Children,

One Life To Live and General Hospital. Movie deals! Movie deals! I have numerous ideas; I am on optimistic cloud. I am a colorful caterpillar in a cocoon smoldering, loitering to fly out. “Readers! Readers! I’m no role model. I’m just a human being, a human being who gives back to my community’s shouts. I’m not George Bush Sr, Bill Gates, Jerry Bruckheimer, Donald Trump, Paul Neman, Ted Warner, Oprah Winfrey, Michael Jordan, Tommy Mottola, Steven Bochco, Kelsey Grammar, Steven Soderbergh, Spike Lee, Mel Gibson, Paul McCartney and  Steven Spielberg: I shout “With all my heartaches and all the manure, I still attempt to use my spiritual gifts despite the fact I have no clout!”