Daily I’m reminded of the pain and sadness
hidden behind my veil of happiness and anger
masked by my immediate emotions to imminent events
my mind has not the patience to linger for such time
racing thoughts save me from myself, yet curse me
with the never ending reminds of hurt and help
sowwow, excitement, dissapointment, fulfillment
some days the memories are overloaded
whether it be positive or negative, my mind has no rest
many dreams haunt me with past memories, attempting to be relived, re-viewed in a different light
upon awakening, the true events sink in deeper
creating more immense lacerations on my brain
tears of regret, tears of overwhelming joy, held back
on a basis consistent with the rising of the sun
my head is incomprehensible, unknowable
thoughts and new ideas, abilities even unbeknownst to me
reveal themselves without prior knowledge or attempt
like a steep cage, a sponge, fly paper
new things enter and never, EVER leave
seared into me like a photo on film
unchanged, unaltered to be stored and replayed relentlessly for eternity