Not sure what day it is,
Not sure that I even care.
Lost all desire to move or be part of life.

This hole is black, it has no way out.
At least none that I can feel.
Tears flow from me like blood.
Leaving streaks of me where ever they fall..

How long has it been now?
Since you left me like this?
To lie in my own pool of blood?
Scarlet tears pouring freely from my eyes.

I loved you from the first time our eyes met.
Now your eyes look upon another
And yet my eyes see only you and empty blackness.

Oh, for the courage to jump,
The courage to take a thousand pills
or to slice my willing wrists.
But I know I will not.
I’ll just lie here, as scarlet tears flow like blood,
Feeling the flood from my heart slowly dying.

You have to come back to me!
I can’t move, I can hardly even breathe.
I’ve not eaten for days.
I remain lying here, wasting away.

How Long has it been now?
How many hours, how many days?
Days that seem like endless years,
Lying here in a puddle of my own scarlet tears.