I look outside my window to all the things I see

I remember the things I had now that I am not free

I think of all the things I’ve done that caused so many pain

I’ve taken it all for granted now my head hangs in shame

If I could turn back time and fix only one thing

I’d take away the pain to people my actions did bring

I’ve lost so much because I did not see how much it meant

I didn’t care, I was free

Now I sit behind these walls as life still moves on

and all the things I cherished most are taken and are gone

I may never enjoy life again the way I once have done

For my actions destroyed the things I’ve held dear, one by one

I seek inside myself to find a way to make it through and

I challenger myself everyday in everything I do.

My answers need to be found and I seek to find the proof

that helps me finally realize I have to admit the truth

I am a failure and this I do confess.

My life is screwed up, my life is a mess.

So that when I come to realize that I fail when I try

to do things on my own I start to cry.

I Ask in my pain what have I become

If I fight this battle in me, will I overcome.

I seek to ask God to lend me a helping hand,

For I believe it is only through Him can I begin to stand

My life is gone. I had a chance to change but, never did.

Who was I fooling , who did I think I could kid.

But I gave this pain within me to God who heard me cry

He said believe He’s helping and success would come if I try

Very slowly the pain has gone and I feel a slight ease

From now on all the matters is that it is God that I please.