I sit in a black room in my mind. Tears streak my face in all my anguish. Am I not good enough…beautiful enough…attractive enough? Why do I feel you do not have interest in me. I am going insane wondering what I did so wrong for you to be so distant. I need you can’t you see this?! Every moment of silence is like another lash across my back in punishment for some unknown crime. Every moment you don’t touch me is like another sword run through me. Every second you don’t see me is like burning in hell fire. WHY?! What have I done for you to not hold me?! What did I say to make you not see me standing here behind you, holding you from behind? You show me so little emotion.

I am ready to walk out the door and keep running until I collapse. I don’t care where I land once I fall as long as I am far from the pain. Far from the agony of the invisibility I seem to be in your life. I understand you are stressed out, but damn it me too. You love me….SHOW ME! Damn it stop ignoring me you bastard! I am here….you are not alone like you used to be. Open up to me…be there for me…save me from all my pain. You said you’d take care of me, but I am the one comforting you.

Love me………….please……before…..it is……too………………Late!

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2012 Unpublished works. © by Rebbecca Abernathy