I am lost in the darkness
Cast out into the cold
Trying to recall my own likeness
A memory I cannot hold

Vanishing leaves much to be desired
There is no returning from invisibility
Attempts at opacity leave me tired
Simply an exercise in futility

They think they can read in my face
All that goes on in my mind
Every feeling I embrace
But I see with every memory I rewind

Every mistake that I made
Every slip of the tongue
Every careful plan I have laid
Every silent song I have sung

Each whispered bit of information
Taught me a valuable lesson
Their listening is a cheap imitation
Of trust placed in the right person

Someone in whom I can confide
I kept my silence to the end
Each time I knew they lied
But I gave them another chance as a friend

Looking at the deception
Looking at the lies they tell
Seeing them skew perception
Seeing each time they fell

I do forgive them for the wrong
I might have done the same in their shoes
They did not hold together long
And in the end we all will lose

Hairline cracks throughout our friendship
Walking on thin ice to keep us from breaking
Hoping it does not happen on the next trip
Or I might lose the tolerance I am faking