Drifting ~ afraid ~ seeking ~ crying

Love ~ Unconditional

I can not find

Warmth ~ Tenderness ~ Caring ~ Sharing

Unconditional ~ Love

I can not find

Searching ~ piercing agony ~ heartfelt illusions

Love  ~ Unconditional

I can not find

Am I looking in the wrong places?

Or is my heart just blind?

God says in His Word for me to ’seek and I shall find’.

25 years of seeking

Yearning for His love

Desiring His touch

I’ve looked all over but didn’t find much.

“Be real to me!” my heart earnestly cries

Pangs of sorrow pierce my insides

“Teach me to love You with my whole heart, mind, body and soul”

I cry daily to Him to no avail

I still don’t feel whole

I’m tired of asking what am I doing wrong

I have so much pain inside that I no longer sing happy songs

Emptiness is a part of me

Eating away my personality

Angrily I reach for my gun

God ~ You don’t want me

I don’t want to live on…

Calmly I place the gun in my mouth

The trigger I pull as I close my eyes and walk toward the couch

As my body slumps slowly to the ground

I look up and see…

Peace ~ Love ~ Joy ~ Happiness

A feeling of belonging and unconditional love fills me

As I slowly drift into eternity.