I sometimes find myself in a cycle where the circumstances that started the ball rolling, I just somehow ran with. And the problem and or situation just snowballed from there.

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How did I get myself into this self-defeating cycle?

For myself, I see will never end.

Lord, please help me.

Can you not spare me one single friend?
My continuous state of utter loneliness,

Is not a misfortune I could ever let myself

Knowingly pass on to another.

As usual, constant overbearing doom,

Inevitability sweeps over and consumes me.

Still, somehow is seems to me to  be in perfect tune.

Desperately I long to rid myself

Of the excruciating pain of always feeling low.

But I only end up contributing to the cycle,

Forced to own the fact that it is all I’ve ever known.

Happiness and content are alien to me. 

Not yet within my grasp, but still I will reach.

 

 

 

 

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  • Undicided on Mar 11, 2009

    nice poem and great illustration of the feeling… I really enjoyed this Astral… tell me is the third part of that other poem published… If it is send me the link coz I wanna read it.. Please and thank you…

  • Mr Ghaz on Mar 11, 2009

    Great work! That was beautiful and lovely piece. I liked it! Thnx 4 sharing

  • Will Gray on Mar 11, 2009

    Great poem and pic. Never give up!

  • nesita on Mar 11, 2009

    Sometimes all we need is someone to give an encouraging word and you have us.

  • Intrepidus on Mar 11, 2009

    I loved the way you portrayed your inner thoughts in this poem! Well written.

  • Joni Keith on Mar 11, 2009

    There’s such a tone of desperation to this poem. The photo compliments the emotion of the words.

  • AstralMelody on Mar 11, 2009

    In response to stephencardiff: No, none of it was copy and pasted or published anywhere else. I just for some reason had a very difficult and what turned out to be an impossible time trying to get all of the lines together. Sorry, nothing more for you to read.

  • mysticdave on Mar 11, 2009

    I really felt this poem, often feel like this too,thank you so much for sharing this:)

  • Joe Dorish on Mar 11, 2009

    Wish I could write poetry like this.

  • HatedNation on Mar 11, 2009

    I think we have all been there in some form

  • Parish Loveless on Mar 11, 2009

    Interesting piece

  • nesita on Mar 11, 2009

    well done!

  • rutherfranc on Mar 11, 2009

    such a soulful write.. I also felt that this needs an intro and a conclusion.. great painting too, enhanced the mood for the poem..

  • CutestPrincess on Mar 12, 2009

    great post!

  • Terese on Mar 13, 2009

    Nice Poem Read mine

  • Kelin Hurt on Mar 13, 2009

    Cool pic it looks like pain of love and he has had fill of the so called words of forever. I think you can do better then that or maybe I am wrong about your pen and its likes for the words of love.

  • Drake Harlem on Mar 17, 2009

    I was very confused by the picture at first. I scrolled down from the title and saw it and my first thought was, “wait what does this have to do with anything?” Reading further I had to scroll back up and give the picture another look before it all came together. Very complimentary. Was it generated by the picture suggestion box?

  • spiritwalker on Mar 17, 2009

    I like your style and it is similar to mine. Keep up with your work!

  • Mr Ghaz on Mar 31, 2009

    Great work! That was LOvely poem and well presented. Thnx for sharing..nice pics too

  • Timothy P Stavert on Apr 1, 2009

    Hi Astra
    I like your work and enjoyed this poem,it is full of meaning, I shall enjoy reading more of your material.

    Tim

  • cleblanc on Apr 16, 2009

    I have felt the same before. It is a sad feeling. Great write!

  • Jenny Heart on Apr 27, 2009

    Seek and ye shall find the truth. Great writing

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