lonely, so lonely

how can one be this lonely

I can’t help but be depressed

No one wants me

No one needs me

Can you comprehend that?

no you can’t

with your girlfriend

and your money

and popularity

No, I dont envy you

if fact I pity you

you values are so messed up

maybe I will never be happy, but at least i know what happy is

happy is…

being needed

being wanted

being loved

being cared about

being the one

being someone at all

but I am not

I am me, alone and broken

and you are you, shallow and ignorant

but we, we are a diffrent story

Because I am the one you mocked, and treated like a freak

and I… I am the one who will kill you

then myself

No one will miss me, but everyone will miss you

You get flowers and tears

I get a box, and a prayer

I am forgotten in a month

you get a never forgotten plaque in the foyer

for I…I am no one

and you…you are some one

but I still didnt win

for I am still alone

I lived a life of depression and fear

fear of not know who would beat me today

my parents

my classmates

but it was always you who beat me the hardest

but when I put that barrel to your head

I laughed

for that same fear you put into me

I had caused for you

and that was the last thing you remember

My life has shattered

then all the pieces

they fall, never to be fixed

I die broken

broken and alone