Tears threaten to burst

Reach out for things

I know are bad for me

Just so I can forget

Pain and sadness

If only for a few minutes

Sex

Alcohol

Drugs

Anything for a buzz

To make it all seem okay

Shake hands with the devil

Greet him, sweetly

Offer soul for happiness

Desperation taints my mind

Give up what’s left

Of my sanity

Hoping for some relief

Make a call

Looking for a buzz

Living isn’t working

So maybe killing will

Brain cell by brain cell

Five minutes gone

Per every cigarette

Give them my life

They give me a buzz

Calm me

Cradle me

Whisper to come back for more

“Kill yourself slowly, sweetly

Give it all to me.”

Shook hands with the devil — take me all away