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I’m sick of going over this

Again and again with you

How many times, how many ways

Do I have to spell this out?

I’ve told you what I want

What I need, what I expect

Why are you still half-steppin’?

We were supposed to meet

In the middle; half-way

So why is it that I am

All up in your end zone?

(Thought I’d put it into terms

Even you could understand)

I’m tired of walking on eggshells

In my own home

Bending over backwards

To try to keep the peace

Breaking my neck trying to

Compensate for your short-comings

And you still only say

You love me when you think

You’re going to lose me

And I’m only beautiful when

I seem to be enjoying

Perhaps a bit too much

The admiration of another

I’m sick of you straying away again

When the threat is no longer imminent

Leaving me to my own devices

For hours, days, weeks

Ignoring my presence

Shunning my company for

That of whom I’m not sure

“The guys” is what you say

But can I believe you

Knowing your history?

I’m tired of you acting surprised

Shocked and confused

When I don’t want to be bothered

When you finally grace me

With your presence

Why don’t I welcome you

With open arms (and legs)?

You still can’t wrap your mind

Around the concept that

Intimacy does NOT begin

In the bedroom, but starts

With a connection, a conversation

Spending time together

I’m sick of living

Under the same roof

Much like strangers cohabitating

In the same boarding house

No interaction; no common interests

Living out our lives separately

Passing each other in the hall

With a brief and cold “hello”

And I’ve had my fill of it

I’m tired of not having

Someone to share

My hopes and dreams with

You’d rather shoot them down

Criticize my ideas

Keep me subdued and under foot

Afraid to let me shine

For fear someone else

May be drawn to my light

And you will lose out

Left to find someone else

To walk over; take advantage of

Take for granted; and neglect

Let me know how that

Works out for you

But I’m sick and tired

© 2009 – Andrea J. Shannon