As i sit here just thinking about last night, my feelings for him is real but every time that i express my self to him all i get is a okay, but i just can’t help but to wonder do he really like me well i can’t worry or stress, it that will be up to god to see if this is the man for me, as i got up this morning i look out the window as i sit here just thinking to my self is that me crying in the inside from all the hurt and pain, but never once did i take out my pass out on him, and i wish he would stop judging me for what his ex-girl friends did to him i am not them, i am me  Nashia Clemons  i would never hurt him the way that i was hurt or lie,cheated,on or any thing but it’s up to him but in the mean time i will continue to be there for him, and hold his hand as a women of god we have to learn how to be still and wait on the lord, but at the same time if you mad at some one then they do have the right to know what he or she is doing wrong, so it can be fix. if you don’t talk to that person and just Igor them then the person wouldn’t know what they did all i want is for him to trust me, but it’s going to take time as i just sit here i can’t get him out of my mind ,last night i never seen him Igor me like that before but as i  just sit here and watch the rain fall i ask my self could this be the end of a good friendship, but only god knows but in my heart i am not going any where cause he makes me happy and never once have i been sad and that’s why i am hanging in there until the end cause it’s worth it to me, but i have to take my time and not rush things because we are both scared. and don’t want to get hurt, which is understand able so for right now i will just sit here.