Stumbling, Slipping, Tripping, Falling
Ripping myself away –turning- from You
Every silent thought
unfiltered -left uncaught-
poisoning the very blood in my veins.

Pumping throughout my body
No part left untouched -corrupted-
Toxins corroding my heart
cutting, slicing, -tearing apart-
Life cannot be repaired.

“Come back –follow Me-“You say,
“Turn around, return, repent.”
Expecting apologies? Sorry,
not from me.
“It’s not my thing,” is replied.

You’re saying You love me. Really?
Funny way of showing it.
Taking happiness back –away-
Clear skies, dark and grey.
No protection from the storm.

How can going through hard times
make me a better –stronger- person?
Making me angry and bitter is not the way to go.
There must be another way You know.
Please show me another way around –out of- this.

Confused, Unsecure, Undecided, Agnostic?
I want to believe –understand- Your love,
but it is not understandable. It’s insane.
You brought this upon yourself, the separation –pain-
You did it all for me –confused, ungrateful-