So things came to be.
Yes I’m scared of what comes next. Unseen and unexplored. Can I pick myself up
to see the rest? When all bridges are burned there is only one way across. Time
is short and constantly ticking. Depression is laughing at me. I’m always
looking to tomorrow to find hope. Things in life are not found but earned. If I
could find the reset button on life…I’d press it and break it. The hardest
person to help is yourself. I feel horrible but I can still feel. Be happy your
alive, there is nothing to find. To be here, to be awake, to be known, to be
you and me are all things to fear. I hope you understand because I certainly
missed something. Is materialism a word? Will I ever quit feeling sorry for
myself. My son needs me. The only thing I need in this life is to give. There
is no such thing as a quick fix. It takes a lot more time to repair life than
it does to mess it up. The only way to learn in life is the hard way. If I
could only take my own advice. Maybe I can. Maybe I can take a stand with
knowledge. Maybe is a bad word. May be dying because every day is one day closer
to death. So are we living or dying? A question to ask myself I guess. Now you
see where we are in life. To be aware is only the beginning of an infinite
puzzle. To be in denial is the beginning of an endless struggle. To be here on
earth is something that no one person will ever be able to explain. Abstract
writing it seems these thoughts I type. Abstract is quite the thought in
itself. To be abstract is perceiving, to know is ignorance. It makes sense
trust me. It’s one thing to talk about it and another to be about it. To Be…
to be happy you were given life, not trying to find happiness within it, and
sharing that opportunity with the ones you love. KJK