How do you not know me? How can you not see the real me? I’ve been here all along; physically AND emotionally.

What do you expect from me? I only want you to be happy… but I am ‘me’ – I can’t just change to who ever YOU want me to be.

But look at what I did… I accepted you, for you – with all your faults. You don’t have to believe me and u can take it with a grain of salt.

But it’s the truth, and I never asked you for anything – never asked you to change. Never told you to act a certain way all those times you went downrange.

I’ve tried real hard to keep you happy, and here I thought I was doing the right things.

Then you wanna hit me outta left field with the feeling that unfaithfulness brings?

And its not just that, regardless of what you might think. ‘Cause I forgave you for your  mistakes, your lies, and the secrets you would keep.

I never thought my life would be the way that it is today. I keep replaying moments of happier times, memories and yesterday’s…. 

I always thought I had what it takes to keep a relationship strong and undefeated. Keep the roles in perspective and give our family what ever it needed.

I’ve realized along the way though, that second chances come and go - so do what you will. But don’t mistake my kindness with each empty glass askin for a refill…

A refill, of second chances? You should’ve learned the first time….dont you know I’m worth more than those girls? A damn good woman for a life-time.

That’s what I wanted to give you, but apparently it wasn’t in the cards… I should’ve seen it comin with all the signs, ups and downs, while you actin’ hard.

Different roads I should’ve taken, actions that were cast aside. Feelings of loyalty just massacred, like it was part of a genocide.

Yes, this IS me, and this is how “I” feel…its time to hang you out to dry, take care of me – and that’s real!

Its true I don’t know what the future holds but I know what “I” need – TRUST! I aint trying to hear no game from you or any other wack-ass player-in-lust.

This is my life, and now I’m doin me….Aint NOTHIN holding me down as far as these green eyes can see.

So take a good look – I was once an Army Wife…Loyal, Strong, and Proud.  I’m still all of those things, but more, and I say it loud…

I SURVIVED! Deployments, being a single mom, being cheated on, and done wrong. But here I am still standing – beautiful, smart, blessed and strong!