This is the first time that I have encountered unfortunate happenings in my life, I always thought that this might be a trial for me and I keep on thinking positive in every way that I can to comfort myself, but it seems that things are getting tougher.

Yesterday, I was dumped by the guy whom I love more than my life. I never thought that he had a girlfriend. I felt stupid, rejected and feel all alone. I treated him like my best friend and a lover .He’s the only one whom I can depend on when I’m sad or happy. I don’t have much friends and he is the only one who will always be there when I needed someone. And now that he has someone who makes him complete, I must put myself to a place where I can’t bother them. I can never see him or touch him again. He is everything to me and I love him more than my life, and even though he has taken my love for granted I never regret showing and telling him how much I really care.

I went home with a broken heart and felt the pain rushing into every vein of my heart. However, I didn’t get mad at him; instead I’m thankful that he has found the woman that makes him happy. And now, nothing’s left for me. I can’t open up to anyone how I really feel, and how my heart was shattered into pieces and the worst is, the only person who cares for me has leave me broken.

Today, I wake up and felt okay. I planned to renew everything about me, my career path, lifestyle, and   my daily tasks. The truth is I can’t stop loving him, and I even don’t know the reason why I love him so much and do stupid things for him. He told me that he wants me to be by his side and remain as his friend or even treat him as my older brother, but in his eyes I can see that he’s lying. I know he’ll never call or try to communicate with me, who am anyway? I am just a simple girl who loves a guy who will never be mine and maybe  he must have felt bad hurting me and wants me to feel alright that’s why he said those words to me.

 I keep myself busy all day working in the office. I got home and was going to check my email and unfortunately, our internet connection has been cut off. I’m supposed to make some articles, but I cannot. I really felt miserable, every night I have an online job and I have six days left to finish the contract because if I don’t, then I won’t get paid. These past days I’ve been working hard working all day in the office and all night writing articles. But since today, I know that I can’t complete my tasks and contract in my online job  and  I will not  get  paid. In short, all my hard work is gone with the wind.

Tomorrow I’ll go to the internet café to publish this article (I’m currently at home and tying it in a word document), because this is the only way wherein I can express myself and simply be me.  I know that things happen for a reason. God is always watching me and my angels are also helping me ease up all the pain and hardships that I’m encountering at this moment.  I must never lose hope nor give up my faith and I must be strong to go through the trials of life.