Sometimes my heart overflows with the words I am not willing to say, but I know as they travel through my bleeding itching ears they will not be dismissed they will not go away.

My tears drown me in a million people that never gave a damn or cared.

For once could you just the things that are special about me without listing being a million things that you fear?

Remember the light you always used to see here!

Now I would give anything not to just have you stare straight through me like stone when I’m still near.

To open me up you must break down the chain length fence that I’ve put up, I promise you this probably will not be easy but you superstar Casanova are breezy.

You are the king of your own land like I’ve always wanted to be, I wonder if from up on that hill am I still a tiny speck or can you see me?

But I should not lay blame just at your feet, for these feet of my own have fallen off track easily.

I always am willing to lie down and let people run me over with what is left of my diminished sense of me.

Sometimes it is not enough to have power you have to have a vision of what it is you wish to be some times I don’t even know the person staring back in the mirror at me.

All I say that as I lay is starlight Starbright dreams please tell me what I am tonight!

If I could wish for anything it is for that these hours could be more real and take me away to a different world where I learn how to heal and how to feel.