How can the wind rip through the air and tear down the sky

With no reason why

Does it ever stop, or start 

The worlds unknown cause me to flinch and groan 

Turmoil is the neighbor in my mind

The answers to questions I cannot find

I write this now without cause or contemplation

Each word arriving at my mind’s station

Testing the waters, oil shall erupt

Leaking through wisdom, coagulated muck

Sunshine be gone! you’re unwelcome here 

In replace of loneliness, now enters fear

Welcome to the stage the master himself

Manipulating the smiles, endearing with stealth 

God, please tell me what’s in store

I don’t know how much more I can take,

Living this life, feeling so fake

What matters to me most is rotten as flesh

Dear God, please tell me what is best

Nothing is wrong, everything’s fine,

what’s killing me now comes from deep inside

I can’t see it, can’t touch it, don’t know where to look

I’m lost, dear God, between the galaxies within

Where’s the fucking map?

I long for freedom from this internal crowd

They plague me, they do, make it all end

Please, dear God, an angel you must send

Lift me from this place, where demons roam

“I’m too weak, I can’t take them”, all I can groan

Nothing that once was ever will be again

The loss of time, the stains of sin

Missing friends, where are you now?

Unloved, rejected, a raven, no crown 

From the sky, so empty, no one can relate

With wings come consequences, that is my fate.

“It’s not all bad, you know” my consolidation

Dear God, save me, I’ve been so patient

I’m lost from losing, I don’t know the rules

This game only makes sense to the ignorance of fools

What can come together through the separation I face,

Everything is broken and cannot be replaced

I’ll say it again, then two or three times more,

If only to better understand what’s next in store

There is no life to live, only words to speak

Silence and death are the thoughts I greet