I try to escape the twisted labyrinth inside,
walls getting higher with increasing demise.
Often doubt my confused, jumbled mind,
resolution to assist the bleeding heart of mine.

A sense of hindrance as uncertainty is haunting,
an illusion in time as the clock ceases ticking.
Deliberation increases, enhancing disarray,
unable to breathe as the air’s sucked away.

My brain so muddled, I question why,
chaotically it becomes more entwined.
Sometimes reality I don’t understand,
an alien language in a foreign land.

I attempt to make sense of the words that I hear,
my feelings hidden, rarely convey the fear.
Difficulty expressing what I mean all along,
living a life that for eternity feels wrong.

Little confidence on my opinions and thoughts,
too many views intertwined, out of sought.
Lost in direction, the track difficult to see,
not knowing the way out to set myself free.

Words without meaning is what I foresee,
too many rules and deaf to my plea’s.
Too often I treat oneself with contempt,
a blur of reality, a pointless attempt.

Many are blind to my emotions within,
never will they know the depth to begin.
Lost in thought when I reach as I darken,
engulfed within a void of utter confusion

©24/8/10