I met you-
When my life was raining
pieces of glass on my head
so lovely and yet so jarring
emotionally devastating
-the force when two people collide
I didn’t want anything
And I got nothing in return
-I guess it’s not what I wanted
the false sense of safety
in the moment before a car crash
-like the unknown certainty of knowing
because truth is like memory
And I just keep forgetting
-what love feels like
the realisation that you can’t remind me
or repair me
as I lay in your broken bedsheets
pretending to sleep
-my heart breaking like waves on a sea
and the emotions collide
with the same force as tide
breaking on the canyon
a steady wearing down
-acceptance, they say
is the greatest form of love
but I need more than that
I need all of you
-as my empty hands close
around the space near your thoughts
the sweet smell of morning blowing in
through the cracked window
-and I can’t stop crying
if you can call it that
the emptiness of emotion
with the soft beating of heart
-no longer intertwined
and soul leaves body
and mind leaves room
doubt painting technicolour dreams
of what could have been
-I wanted more than friends
and it’s like being in the desert for
forty days, temptation waits
on the other side of the oasis
where the water is
-but I’m too scared
to cross the deapths
into your liquid heart
because your blood is fire
and I burn too fast
-my heart collapsing
like a star, devouring emotion
and past into darkness
and fear penetrates the deapths
where new worlds and planets
burst into beautiful life
-but you can’t change
and I can’t change you
so I’ll lay here for a moment more
before sunlight hits your golden
skin, illuminating
-what could have been
I don’t think I can see you again.
-I only wanted more than friends.