Stuck in Slow Motion

Tammy Wyrick on Mar 17, 2009

Tags: slow motion

This is how I feel most of the time. I struggle to get going and at the same time trying to tell people what is going on, but I feel that I speaking in a different language and being misunderstood most of the time. Never really going forward, but not stopping completely either. I have no controll over time.

Morning again and the sun is shining.

The air is getting warmer because spring is coming,

But why do I feel like doing nothing?

I’m awake, yet my body tells me to sleep.

I feel there is no use to finish the promises that I promise to keep.

It will be the same old thing; my soul tells me way down deep.

I struggled to move and start the day anyway.

I took hours of thought to just move one thing one way.

I get angry at myself, for me moving in the slowest way.

Overloaded with emotions, while time seems to pass me by,

I get even angrier, for I feel I’m wasting the time by.

“How can I catch up with the rest of the world,” I say with a sigh.

The day is almost gone and I really haven’t done a thing today.

I hate myself for not being able to do normal things in a way.

I feel I’m stuck in slow motion, while things zoom by my way.

By the time I get myself going, it is already night fall.

I wish I could stop time so I can get things done, and off to a good roll,

But time can’t be stop, so I just keep with my steady pace stroll.

I feel I’m falling further behind in everything that I do.

The more I feel this way, the more I feel blue.

I feel I’m going backwards and failing like a fool.

I feel like a scratched up CD repeating the same words.

Not going forward, letting all the words be heard.

I’m stuck in slow motion and being misunderstood.

You come at me anger, for I didn’t finish the list of chores.

You beat me with more ugly words to endure.

You make me wish that I should have stayed in bed for sure.

I climb back to bed, crying and being very sleepy.

At least now, my sweet dreams can make me happy.

I’m finally at a state where I’m worry some free.

I know this is wrong to embrace this slumber land.

It is the only place that I feel safe and happy with what I can.

It seems like it is the only place I can do right and well by man.

You tell me to seek help and do something for me.

You yell and scream at me like I do have the ability.

Can’t you see that I am trying, but sleep has become my sanctuary?

I’m at the point I care about nothing at all.

Not myself, not you, not anybody at all.

I know I’m failing and heading for a big fall.

I also realize that there is no one to catch me.

It is up to me to really set myself free.

I have to find a way on my own to make myself happy.

Oh! I wish time would stop for the moment.

Let me figure out how to get out of this torment.

I can’t seem to find these answers to this assignment.

Time moves on and doesn’t stop for me.

I continue to find the strength each day to make me happy.

I slowly try to do the best as I can each day and just see.

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Ruby Hawk on Mar 17, 2009
Ohhhhhh,Make a list and work your way down your list. Do something helpful for somebody in need. Don’t let yourself off with excuses. Just do it.
Alice Wonder on Mar 18, 2009
I’m not an expert, but you sound like you could be depressed? Have you ever talked to a doctor about it?

I often feel like I’m in the same sort of a situation, stationary watching life pass me by. And sometimes I just feel helpless, I have ambitions but the motivation, the inspiration needed to get me moving just doesn’t happen.

Sometimes I just have to stop and have a serious mental conversation with myself. It’s not about control over time, all we can do is use as much of the time we’re given doing things we can look back on with a smile or satisfaction. The moment will never be seized if you don’t seize it!

About the actual writing, I like this poem a lot, I think in some places your word choice could be better, but of all your writing I found this to convey the best emotion. Well done!!
Amsky on Mar 18, 2009
All of us have our own bad day and it even last for a week or two.Don\’t worry everything will gonna be fine again.It is normal for us to get bored when we are doing the same things over and over again. Try to talk to some of your long lost friends for a change. You gonna be alright.

Amsky
Darla Cooke on Mar 18, 2009
I’ve felt like this myself.
Stickinthemud on Mar 18, 2009
Hi, Tammy.
Got the morning ‘blase’? That can be hard to beat, especially if it carries through the entire day! I agree with Kellee, maybe you should seek a professional instead of trying to fight it yourself. After all, there’s always someone willing to help. As for the free form you have here, you’ve used a lot of abstract images and cliche but not a lot of specific detail. I realize that doing so may be hard when you’re trying to convey an emotion, but there are ways to do it that can create a more lasting effect. For instance, why say that you’re angry when you can guffaw and slam your hands on the table?
You can portray emotions vividly if you pick the right details.
poeticseraphim on Mar 21, 2009
I am not going to comment on the subject matter i am not qualified but rather on the writing.

You have some nice turns of phrase:-)

I think it needs to to flow more:-)

IT seems disjointed at times some phrases are great the language is poetic and then it changes to something else another style or something and it jars???

I don’t know that rhyme is right for this maybe it might be better without it??

Some of the language is lovely ‘i feel there is no use to finish the promises i promise to keep’ but some of it feels clunky ‘ i wish i could stop time so i can get things done and get things off to a good roll’.

Also some of the English needs correction grammatically.

Perhaps this is done purposely i don’t know but i think it would be better corrected.
A~L on Mar 23, 2009
I think you did a really good job of showing your inner feelings. Sometimes it takes a lot to get going again but you can do it!

Keep writing and venting your feelings its a good outlet!
magicdarts on Apr 3, 2009
wonderful work -sometimes you have to try and just go with the flow of life and just think about the little things that make you smile rather than get too worried about what’s beyond your control

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